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 At the tail end of AU week, I'm stealing an idea fractalmuses shared with me on Discord. 

If your pup were to be in a Star Wars AU, what would their role be? Or what if it were a Str Trek AU instead? Would they be in Star Fleet? If so, what branch?

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Aug. 18th, 2017 05:08 am[syndicated profile] kkissbbang_feed

Posted by tayberhecate

Hey all! I know it's been a while since this fandom has been very active, but I'm hoping there's at least a few people out there still interested in it.

I go by Tayber. I roleplay over at InsaneJournal and I'm hoping to find someone who would be interested in playing Perry to my Harry. I'm also open to Harmony or other characters, but I'd especially love to find a Perry player. I've been writing KKBB fics for going on ten years and RPing as Harry for five, so you could say I'm in it for the long haul. While I've occasionally found partners playing Perry, none of them have stuck around for very long.

I play at mostly multifandom and panfandom games on Insanejournal, but I might entertain the possibility of a PSL. My preferred ship is Harry/Perry, but I do want to make sure to honor Harry's sexuality and his love for Harmony. Besides, half the fun is writing these two idiots figure it out! I would also be willing to RP Harry/Harmony. However I am not just looking for a shipping partner, I'm also looking to develop some action and plot.

I do have a game in mind (panfandom, rebellion-against-a-regime type of plot), but again, I'm pretty open-minded when it comes to setup and specifics. If you might be interested or would like to know more, you can reach me here, or you can browse through my Harry RP journal and we can talk there too.

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The Sun is the closest star to us in the entire Universe, so you’d think we’d know the most about it. And in many senses we do; we can view the surface in high resolution and see details there we cannot in other stars.

But there’s still a lot about it we don’t know, and lots of questions remain unanswered. Some seem simple enough. For example: How fast does the Sun’s core rotate?

Now we know: It spins around almost exactly once a week. The weird thing is, that’s four times faster than the Sun’s surface rotation! The Sun’s insides spin faster than its outsides.

So there’s a bit to break down here, but it’s pretty cool. OK, fine: It’s hot. But the news is cool.

This cutaway diagram shows the internal layers of the Sun, and how pressure waves (p-waves) bounce around under the surface and through the Sun, while gravity waves (g-waves) don’t make it from the deep interior to the surface.

This cutaway diagram shows the internal layers of the Sun, and how pressure waves (p-waves) bounce around under the surface and through the Sun, while gravity waves (g-waves) don’t make it from the deep interior to the surface. Credit: ESA; (Sun’s chromosphere based on SOHO image; credit: SOHO (ESA & NASA))

 

The Sun is not a solid ball, but is instead a gigantic sphere of gas (technically, it’s a plasma, a gas in which the atoms have lost one or more electrons; that’s actually important, as we’ll see in a sec). Overall, the Sun is about 1.4 million kilometers wide. At the center, the temperature and pressure are so high (15 million degrees C and hundreds of billion times Earth’s atmospheric pressure at sea level!) that hydrogen atoms slam into each other and through a complicated process fuse into helium. This releases a lot of energy — a lot — and that’s why the Sun shines. This energy works its way out of the solar interior and radiates away from the surface as light.

The region where hydrogen is transmogrified into helium is called the core, and it’s about 1/5th of the Sun’s diameter: roughly 280,000 km wide (somewhat less than the distance from the Earth to the Moon, for comparison). We know it’s there, despite being buried under a half million kilometers of raging plasma, due to the physics of how the Sun works — the discovery of nuclear fusion was a huge breakthrough in understanding solar dynamics.

 

When we look at the Sun from the outside, we see it spinning. Even though the surface isn’t solid and is always changing, there are a few ways to measure the rotation rate: For example, you can watch sunspots and use them as landmarks (well, plasmamarks, I guess). When you do, you find that the Sun rotates once every few weeks or so. Moreover, it rotates at a higher rate at the equator versus the poles; 25 versus 35 days. That “differential rotation” is again because the Sun isn’t a solid body, and sloshes around a bit.

But how fast does the core rotate? That number has been long sought, and has been maddeningly elusive. However, a new method has finally revealed the answer ... and it’s because the Sun is vibrating.

Between the core and the surface is a region of the Sun called the convective zone, where hot plasma rises and cool plasma sinks, similar to water boiling in a pan. There are thousands of these cells of plasma moving up and down inside the Sun, and they agitate the material around them. This creates a pressure wave, similar to a sound wave. When these reach the Sun’s surface they cause it to vibrate, and these vibrations can be measured. The physics of waves is well enough understood that the properties of these waves can be used to measure conditions inside the Sun, so we can figure out what’s going deep beneath the surface without ever seeing it directly. The science of this is called helioseismology.

The problem here is that these pressure waves (also called p-waves) travel pretty rapidly through the dense regions deep inside the Sun, so they’re not sensitive to the core’s relatively slow rotation. They can’t be used directly to measure how quickly the core rotates.

Ah, but there’s another type of wave, called a gravity wave (or g-wave, not to be confused with gravitational waves, which are very different). This is the same kind of wave you get when you move around in your bathtub: Water gets pushed up, and gravity pulls it back down. The water picks up speed as it falls and overshoots a little, dipping down and creating a trough between crests. Those crests get pulled down, and so on, creating the g-wave.

With the Sun, these waves are generated at the core, but they don’t make it out to the surface, so they can’t be measured directly. Arg!

As p-waves move through the Sun the surface oscillates, as shown in this physical model of how the surface moves up and down.

As p-waves move through the Sun the surface oscillates, as shown in this physical model of how the surface moves up and down. Credit: NSO/GONG

But wait! There’s a solution here. It turns out that when p-waves pass through the core, the material moving under the influence of g-waves interacts with them, changing the way p-waves move through it. The effect is incredibly subtle, but with careful measurement it can be seen.

And it finally has been, using the venerable Solar and Heliospheric Observatory (SOHO), a space-based observatory dedicated to observing the Sun. An instrument on board SOHO, called Global Oscillations at Low Frequencies (or GOLF), was designed to look at solar p-waves. By taking measurements over a staggering 16.5 years (SOHO launched in 1995), astronomers were able to see the subtle effect of g-waves on them. It’s these measurements that indicate the solar core rotates much faster than the surface.

This has been suspected for years, and it’s nice to see it confirmed. And I have to admit, as soon as I heard this I did a mental forehead slap. I should’ve known the core would spin faster!

Why? From physical theories, we think stars spin rapidly when they’re born. We see lots of confirmation of this by observing young stars, too. But the Sun’s surface spins only once a month or so. This is most likely due to its magnetic field: the powerful magnetism generated inside the Sun. It’s not well understood exactly where the magnetism is created, but it’s certainly above the core, in or just above the convection zone. A very well-known property of physics is that moving charged particles create a magnetic field, and the plasma moving up and down in the Sun’s convective region therefore does just that.

Above the Sun’s surface, the magnetic field acts like a gigantic net, sweeping up subatomic particles emitted from the Sun and speeding them up, like a fishing net picking up fish. As it does, the particles push back a little bit on the magnetic field. Since the magnetism is anchored in the Sun’s material, this acts, over billions of years, to slow the Sun’s rotation down

But the magnetic field isn’t anchored in the core. The outer layers slow down, but the core is still free to spin faster. Sure, friction will slow it down, but even after 4.5 billion years it will still be rotating faster than the Sun’s surface — a ball of plasma nearly 300,000 km across has a substantial amount of momentum. I don’t study the Sun specifically, but I knew all this, and I should’ve been able to piece it together myself. It never occurred to me, but it seems obvious now. Ah, well.

So, anyway, this is pretty nifty. We don’t have a lot of ways to study the Sun’s core, and now we have a new one that looks very promising. Rotation is just one of many properties of the core we can learn about using this method. It’s like a window that allows us to see past the septillions of tons of plasma in the Sun and get information on the depths below.

We’ve been studying the Sun for centuries, but there’s still so much to learn about it! It’s very welcome to have a new tool to use to study it.

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Aug. 17th, 2017 07:59 am[personal profile] iosonochesono
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I'm having a problem with Monique.

Increasingly, Monique is simply sleeping away the entire shift.

Now, normally things aren't dramatic at work and I don't mind us splitting so we can catch a bit of sleep. I'm not against sleeping, period. However:

1. She has stopped doing tasks that have to be done. Like last night, she slept straight through, and didn't tell me, so no one was doing checks downstairs. Then she fell asleep upstairs when we switched, so no one was doing checks upstairs. She doesn't move laundry, etc.

2. She keeps pushing her wake-up time to later and later in the morning. This morning she slept til 6:38AM! The next staff comes in at 7:00AM. Also, it was Thursday - we had a hot breakfast to prepare. It starts at 6:00AM. She claims that we normally 'start these tasks' at 6:30AM, but that's absolutely not true. We've always started around 6:00AM.

3. This morning she actually got mad at me because I woke her up twice. For 'saying she was asleep in earshot of clients' (she's done the same to me) and 'making her panic and think it was later than it was' (shift change is at 7AM.)

Note to self: In the future, do all the work myself, don't wake her up, and let her make her own bed and sleep in it. I'd rather have a good relationship with her than not, but this is bullshit. She really doesn't have an excuse she can pull on me. We both have two full-time jobs. She needs to get her act together. Which means:

1. Be honest about work ability on a given night and let me know if I need to do all the checks.

2. Split the sleeping time in half so both of us can have some.

3. Get tasks done.




Normally I love her, but I'm going to have to confront her on this and have an honest conversation. She wants to claim it's 'inappropriate' that I woke her up (thereby potentially having clients find out she fell asleep) but doesn't seem to realize how inappropriate it is that she's sleeping through checks rather than telling me to do checks. And not giving me opportunity to catch a nap as well. And not doing all the morning tasks.

Like girl if you can't handle two jobs quit one. I don't care how little work there is I'd rather do it myself than resent someone for sleeping while I work.

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Title: Beetle Eyes and Bubotuber Pus
Author: [personal profile] rosevalleynb
Rating:PG
Relationships: Katie Bell/Marcus Flint
Series:Part 3 of One of These Days
Summary:


‘I wanna lick your face.’

Bell had said it. Marcus was sure she had, Bole and Pucey had heard her too. Girls like her - -well, girls in general, did not say such things to him. Nor did they sniff his neck or stand so close that he could feel their tits pressed against his back. Bell had done all those things. To top it off, she kept staring at him like in the same way his perpetually dieting Aunt Beatrice looked at chocolate cake after a week-long fasting.

Or

Marcus Flint has an admirer and he's being an utter tool about it.

Sequel to Scrubbing Cauldrons.



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Thursday DE

Aug. 17th, 2017 06:55 am[personal profile] needsmoreresearch posting in [community profile] ways_back_room
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What are some of your character’s cheesiest--for lack of a better word--canon lines? Cheesy can be a lot of things, good and bad--bombastic, corny, clunky, earnest, facile, overwritten, overacted, over-the-top in one way or another… Does it make you cringe every time, or do you kind of love it?

(NB: I’m asking as someone whose character actually says “There is no stopping it! There is only…...THE WAR.”)

smalldeer has questions about apples

Aug. 17th, 2017 07:00 pm[personal profile] lilysea posting in [community profile] metaquotes
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oh and a warm apple. like, a really warm apple. warmer than my teeth when i bit into it. no offense but. why. did they microwave this apple? did they store it in a dragon's mouth before allowing me to purchase it? did this apple recently return from a trip to the surface of the sun?

Context is the slings and arrows of working in the food service industry.

Mishaps in Dating

Aug. 17th, 2017 01:20 am[personal profile] iosonochesono
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One thing about online dating advertisements are people lying about their age and/or they seek people much younger than they are.

I don't know how it works for everyone, but here's the way it works for me:

+ If we look about the same age range, I'm not going to actually care if you're really twenty years older than me or more. If you're twenty-four years older than me but look like you're in your thirties, what the heck do I care? My dad's in his mid-fifties and he's in better shape than I am.*

+ If we don't look to be in the same age range even though we are, same rule basically applies. It's a little disturbing to see thirty-three year olds who look to be in their fifties, and I worry about your health. And I want people I can get in shape with as opposed to lose shape with.*

+ I prefer people to be older than me, with few exceptions, but I definitely prefer someone to at least be twenty-six.*

*All these rules assume meeting someone online as opposed to in person. Maybe you're gray and sixty-three and in poor shape but we had a connection in person. The oldest person I'd consider dating was way older than me and a co-worker. Likewise, Jordan's the youngest person I've crushed on. The key factor is they're people I feel secure around and they tend to have seniority over me. But you don't get crushes online. But if your true goal is to meet your one true love who just happens to be twenty or more years younger than you... You're probably fetishizing youth. I'm not interested in being actively sought by people who I don't know and also happen to look thirty years older than me. That type of chemistry would have to happen in person.

Shout outs

Aug. 16th, 2017 10:04 pm[personal profile] ceitfianna posting in [community profile] ways_back_room
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This AU week is full of great stuff and a returning Milliwaysers too. I'm only listing three here, fill up the comments with what you're loving.

Ibani continues to be heartbreaking.

Star Wars as Star Trek with Hera, Kanan and Thrawn is so cool. I love this.

Succulent AU, I love that this happened.

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Pairing(s)/Characters: Ron, Harry, Lily
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Summary: After the issues with Albus, Harry is struggling to connect with Lily so goes to her Godfather Ron hoping for an insight. He gets something.

Welcome Blanket

Aug. 16th, 2017 03:09 pm[personal profile] lavenderspark posting in [community profile] crochet
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"A welcome blanket is traditionally created to lovingly mark the arrival of a new person into the world. In the Welcome Blanket project, each handmade blanket is a physical manifestation of this celebration of new refugees and other immigrants: “Welcome to the United States and your new life here! We are so glad you have arrived.”"

The Smart Museum of Art of Chicago is asking for donations of handmade blankets (40"x40") to welcome families coming to our country (the USA), but also to try and make a GIANT blanket equal to the size of the proposed wall between us and Mexico. As a way to protest the wall.

The museum is going to display the blankets (and notes if you include one) from now until December when the blankets will be delivered to families. The deadline to send blankets to the museum is November 4.

https://www.welcomeblanket.org

Here's the start of my blanket!
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Posted by Phil Plait

Sitting in the middle of our Milky Way galaxy is a monster black hole. And by “middle,” I mean the exact center of the galaxy; it probably formed at the same time as the galaxy, itself, billions of years ago, and grew large as the galaxy did, too. It sits right there at the core, like a drain in the middle of a vast bathtub, mostly minding its own business but occasionally eating the odd star or gas cloud.

We think every big galaxy has one of these supermassive black holes in their hearts. Mostly, those are detected because they have disks of gas swirling madly around them, and observations can detect the motion of the gas via the Doppler shift as it orbits (we don’t usually see the disks themselves, which are too small).

But our galaxy is different. We’re in it, so we’re close to the black hole, and we have a better view. Not too close; we’re still halfway out to the edge of the galaxy, so we’re safe! But there are a few dozen stars that orbit the black hole far more closely, and because of our closer seat we can actually see them move as they do!

As an aside, this is one of the all-time coolest things I know about astronomy. It takes the Sun over two hundred million years to circle the galaxy once, but these stars are so close to the center, so close to the black hole, that they only take decades. That means that we can literally see them move year after year:

 

Scientifically, this is a very big deal. We’ve known for centuries that if you can observe an object orbiting a more massive object, you can calculate the mass of that second object. If you know the first object’s orbital velocity (how fast it’s moving as it goes around) you can also calculate the distance to them.

So, if we observe the stars orbiting that black hole in the center of the Milky Way (astronomers call it Sgr A*, literally pronounced “Sagittarius A star” or “Saj A star” if you feel more informal about it), we can, in principle, figure out the mass of the black hole and our distance from it.

Actual observation showing the central part of our galaxy. The black hole is invisible but marked by a cross. The star S2 is indicated. Credit: ESO/MPE/S. Gillessen et al.

Actual observation showing the central part of our galaxy. The black hole is invisible but marked by a cross. The star S2 is indicated. Credit: ESO/MPE/S. Gillessen et al.

 

 

Not that that’s easy...but it’s been done. Powerful telescopes observing in the infrared (to make it easier to see the stars through all the dust and muck toward the center of the galaxy) have been able to watch these stars in their orbits, and also measure their Doppler shifts. That gives their velocities, too.

Using this method, we’ve been able to measure the mass of the black hole as being around 4 million times that of the Sun, and its distance as about 26,000 light years.

As amazing as that is, a team of astronomers decided they might be able to do more.

One of the stars orbiting the black hole is called S2. Its orbit brings it pretty close to Sgr A*, a hair-raising 18 billion kilometers, the equivalent of four times the distance from the Sun to Neptune. When it’s at that point in its orbit it’s screaming through space at the colossal speed of 6000 kilometers per second, 0.02 times the speed of light.

This is so close to the black hole that Einsteinian relativistic effects can kick in. There are quite a few, but one, in particular, is very interesting. If an object is in an elliptical orbit around something massive, the orientation of that ellipse will rotate over time. In other words, if you draw a line through the long axis of the ellipse, that line will rotate a little bit every time the object orbits. The effect is strongest at periapsis, the point when the orbiting object is closest to the object it orbits.

We actually have measured this effect; Mercury’s orbit does this. The effect is tiny, and difficult to measure, because the Sun isn’t very massive (in the relativistic sense) and mercury doesn’t get that close. But we do see it, and it’s exactly as Einstein’s equations of General Relativity predict.

This new team of astronomers thought that perhaps they could see this effect as the star S2 orbits Sgr A*. They looked at the observational data from 2002 (when S2 was last at periapsis) to 2015 and found that S2 maybe, barely, shows this effect. Their results certainly are at least consistent with what Einstein predicted.

orbits of stars around Sgr A*

The positions of three stars (including S2) orbiting Sgr A* over time (symbols) and the calculated orbits (solid lines; dashed lines are where the orbit has been extrapolated from known data). The black hole is marked by a short line, representing its motion (actually a reflection of the motion of the Sun as it orbits the galaxy). Credit: Parsa et al.

 

That’s amazing. This has never been seen on this scale, before. And while their results are a touch iffy, we’ll know better soon enough: S2 reaches periapsis once again sometime between April and July 2018 (the orbital characteristics aren’t perfectly known, so there’s a bit of uncertainty there). During that time, telescopes will be peering intently at the center of our galaxy, very carefully measuring the position of the star.

...and a few others. S2 is just the nearest bright star to Sgr A*. There’s another that’s closer but fainter, and harder to get accurate positions for it, but quite a few other stars have been seen orbiting the black hole as well. The team looked at them too, and by calculating their orbits were able to narrow down the mass and distance to the black hole: 4.15 million times the mass of the Sun, and at a distance from us of 26,700 light years (with some small uncertainties).

Again being able to do this is, quite simply, incredible, in the awe-inspiring sense of the word. Scientifically, it’s amazing enough; we know that there are characteristics of these supermassive black holes that seem to correlate with the galaxy around them (the way stars orbit the center, for example, seems to scale with the mass of the black hole), so being able to nail down the mass and distance our own local supermassive beastie is stunning.

But the fact of the matter is that it’s astonishing that we can do this at all. This is a ridiculously finicky set of observations coupled with ridiculously complicated mathematics describing the overall shape and character of space itself.

Yet, we can make these observations, and we can apply that math, and we can couple them to discover what a hole in spacetime 260 quadrillion kilometers away is doing as it tosses around multiple-octillion ton stars.

Why do we do this? Because we’re curious. Because we’re smart. Because we want to discover, and, most importantly, to understand.

This has driven us to investigate the Universe, itself...and to know our place in it.

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 As it's AU week anyway -- remember the old Hogwarts AU we had on MM back on LJ? Even if not -- who would your character be, what House, student or teacher or other? Death Eater or Dumbledore's Army?

Things of the Day

Aug. 15th, 2017 11:54 pm[personal profile] iosonochesono
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Nick has announced he is stressed out by bookkeeping and doesn't want to do it while he's in school. The bookkeeper has tanked.

So instead of waiting for them to go through another manager or two in the Starbucks department, I'm asking to be made manager over there (because then I can bookkeep.)

... Okay then. I guess I'll go ahead and work on getting a new car. And if this happens, I will be kicking my dad and brother out of the apartment within the next three months.




Jordan came by today to buy his Stella Artois (yes, that's right! He's stopped sending co-workers!). Whenever I see him I feel like the rough equivalent of what a computer would probably feel (if it could) trying to run 800GB with only 400GB of hard-drive.

Like, let's break my brain down in all the directions it spins whenever Jordan comes around:

1. Anger, because he was King of Bailing.

2. Sad, because he's not intentionally King of Bailing, it's just a symptom of being a very insignificant friend. So there's sadness about unrequited sexual/romantic feelings but then also about unrequited regular 'ole platonic, friendly feelings.

3. SEXUAL FEELINGS.

4. REVULSION OF SEXUAL FEELINGS (I have a sexual dysfunction, so sexual feelings also come with revulsion. FUN. Like, to clarify: Even if Jordan tomorrow walked up to me and wanted to actually do anything sexual, I don't know what I'd do other than spontaneously combust from the intense simultaneous arousal/revulsion. I think I would literally die. I honestly think I would explode from the contradictory feelings. I've made enough progress that I have lost enough anxiety to try dating again. But there's still a lot of revulsion to work through.)

5. INTENSE HAPPINESS. Because Jordan is my favorite person to talk to and I feel very safe around him. Which is NOT supported by evidence, but again: Starbucks history.

6. INTENSE EMBARRASSMENT: See 1-5.

7. CUDDLE ENVY. (Which I literally feel about just about anyone I have any emotional attachment to at all right now, to be fair, but like, HOLY SHIT, I just want to curl next to someone and sleep like a cat so bad.)

8. Sadness about us never doing anything we ever planned and general irritation that he kept bailing on things but he still can come in and grab beer every week.

9. Loneliness. Because of said bailing and wishing I had people in general who were part of a tight-knit group where we did adventurous/outdoor stuff together. Jessica and my other friends are great, but they'll never SCUBA or sky-dive.

I literally felt sick a short while after interacting with him. This list isn't in any particular order, either. My point is my mind is in so many places.

Ugh. Well. He's moving back to England, anyway.

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ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛs ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏʙʙɪᴇs: I'ᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʀᴏʟᴇᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ ᴛᴇɴ ʏᴇᴀʀs ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ɢᴀᴍᴇ. Yɪᴋᴇs! I ᴀʟsᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅʀᴀᴡ, ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴀʙʙʟᴇ ɪɴ ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ. I'ᴍ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ sᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ғᴏʀ ɢʀᴀᴘʜɪᴄ ᴅᴇsɪɢɴ. I ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ/ᴀʟᴛᴇʀɴᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴄᴏᴍɪx ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ғᴇᴡ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ғᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛs ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇ Rᴏʙᴇʀᴛ Cʀᴜᴍʙ, Hᴇʀɴᴀɴᴅᴇᴢ Bʀᴏᴛʜᴇʀs, ᴀɴᴅ Cʜᴀʀʟᴇs Bᴜʀɴs. I ᴀʟsᴏ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ Bᴀᴛᴍᴀɴ's ᴠɪʟʟᴀɪɴs ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ Bᴀᴛᴍᴀɴ ʜɪᴍsᴇʟғ, ʜᴀʜᴀ.

ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇs: Pʜᴀɴᴛᴏᴍ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ Pᴀʀᴀᴅɪsᴇ, Rᴏᴄᴋʏ Hᴏʀʀᴏʀ, Dᴏᴏᴍ Gᴇɴᴇʀᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, Dᴇᴀᴛʜ Pʀᴏᴏғ, Gʜᴏsᴛ Wᴏʀʟᴅ, Pᴜʟᴘ Fɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ, Dᴇᴛʀᴏɪᴛ Rᴏᴄᴋ Cɪᴛʏ, Hᴇᴅᴡɪɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ Aɴɢʀʏ Iɴᴄʜ, Pʀɪsᴄɪʟʟᴀ: Qᴜᴇᴇɴ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ Dᴇsᴇʀᴛ, A Gᴏᴏғʏ Mᴏᴠɪᴇ, Aᴜsᴛɪɴ Pᴏᴡᴇʀs, Sᴏ I Dᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀɴ As Mᴜʀᴅᴇʀᴇʀ, Mᴀsᴋ, Rᴇsᴇʀᴠᴏɪʀ Dᴏɢs, Kɪʟʟ Bɪʟʟ, ᴇᴛᴄ.

ᴛᴠ sʜᴏᴡs: Tʜᴇ Oғғɪᴄᴇ, Aᴍᴇʀɪᴄᴀɴ Hᴏʀʀᴏʀ Sᴛᴏʀʏ (ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇxᴄɪᴛᴇᴅ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ sᴇᴀsᴏɴ??), Pᴀʀᴋs & Rᴇᴄ, Bʟᴀᴄᴋ Mɪʀʀᴏʀ, Fᴜᴛᴜʀᴀᴍᴀ, Sɪx Fᴇᴇᴛ Uɴᴅᴇʀ, Mᴀᴅ Mᴇɴ, Cʜᴇᴡɪɴɢ Gᴜᴍ, ᴜɴɪᴛᴇᴅ sᴛᴀᴛᴇs ᴏғ ᴛᴀʀᴀ, ᴀɴᴅ sᴏ ᴏɴ!

ᴍᴜsɪᴄ: Pɪxɪᴇs, Tʜᴇ Gʀᴏᴡʟᴇʀs, Tʜᴇ Cʀᴀᴍᴘs, Tʜᴇ Mᴜᴍᴍɪᴇs, Tʜᴇ Sʜɪᴛʙɪʀᴅs, Sʜᴀɴɴᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ Cʟᴀᴍs, Pᴏʀᴛɪsʜᴇᴀᴅ, Sʟᴇᴀᴛᴇʀ Kɪɴɴᴇʏ, Jᴏʏ Dɪᴠɪsɪᴏɴ, 80's/90's ʀ&ʙ ᴀɴᴅ ʜɪᴘ-ʜᴏᴘ, ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟʟʏ ᴀʟᴍᴏsᴛ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. Nᴏᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ᴘᴜʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ "ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ʀᴀᴘ ɴ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛʀʏ" ᴄᴜᴢ I'ᴠᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ᴏғ ʙᴏᴛʜ.

ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ: Rᴇᴀʟʟʏ, ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ sᴇᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ, ᴀᴅᴅ ᴍᴇ!  Lᴇᴛ's ᴄʜᴀᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴡᴇ sʜᴀʀᴇ ɪɴ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴏɴ (ᴏʀ ɴᴏᴛ)! Eᴠᴇɴ ɪғ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ ʜᴀs sᴇᴇᴘᴇᴅ ᴛʜʀᴜ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ɪᴍᴘʀᴇssᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅs - ʟᴇᴛ's ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ! I'ᴍ ᴠᴇʀʏ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴀɴᴅɪɴɢ. Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs I'ᴍ ғᴜɴɴʏ. Bᴜᴛ I'ᴍ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴡɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ɪᴛ. Wᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛʜʀᴜ sᴛᴜғғ ᴀɴᴅ sᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛ ɪs ɴɪᴄᴇ. I ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴀʏ ʜᴏᴡ ᴏғᴛᴇɴ I'ʟʟ ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇ ʙᴜᴛ I ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ʀᴇᴀᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴇɴᴛ!
 
ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴇʟsᴇ: I'ᴍ sᴛɪʟʟ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇss ᴏғ sᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙʟᴏɢ ᴜᴘ ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɢᴏɪɴɢ, ʙᴜᴛ! ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴍᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪʀᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ʀᴘɢ (ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴏʀ ᴇʟsᴇᴡʜᴇʀᴇ, I'ᴍ ғᴜʟʟʏ ɪɴᴠᴇsᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴊᴏɪɴɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴜɴɪᴛʏ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ!) ᴀɴᴅ I'ʟʟ ʀᴇᴛᴜʀɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴋɪɴᴅɴᴇss ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟɪɴᴋs ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʙsᴏʟᴜᴛᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏ ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏs ᴇᴠᴇʀ! Wᴇʟʟ, ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ I'ʟʟ sᴛɪʟʟ sᴇɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʏᴀ. ;)

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